ITT I tell you stuff you don't need to know.

In general to keep out retardation.

So, before I start talking, I'm going to tell WHY I'm talking. I'm posting this stuff because I, by nature it seems, have the need to tell people things that are going on. Why? I don't know. It's just a strong desire I have to alert people to my feelings. I usually do so through Facebook, but I can't with this. So I'm using you guys .


So, over this past weekend(friday, to be exact) we went to my grandmothers for Easter. Big family get together on my mother's side. I don't want to go, but am forced. Only thing to look forward to will be hanging with my two uncles, who are AWESOME. They helped raise me when I was younger, especially my Uncle Donnie, who taught me about video games and what not. Along the way, around 3-4 AM or something, I wake up, and we're at a hotel, and Mom tells me that my favorite Uncle(Donnie) had just shot my second favorite Uncle(Dansa) and his only son then disappeared. Dansa was in ICU(Intensive Care Unit for those who don't know). So i can't really comprehend this, I watch Emma while parents try to get some sleep, and eventually get to sleep myself. We get to South Carolina, get our room, go to my Grandma's house, see my aunts and what not(btw, Donnie and Dansa were the only boys out of 5 kids). We eat, we go see Uncle Dansa in ICU. He was apparently shot in the face, and needed some reconstruction surgery. He was out cold that visit. Stuff happens i don't remember, I think some theorizing as to what happened, because this is so unlike him at all. Stuff comes up, like Post Traumatic Stress, schizophrenia, being drunk and messing around, accident, etc. I then find out that my cousin actually died from the shot instantly, and I was under the impression that he was alright. I don't know why, since we WOULD have visited him in the hospital, but because I saw Dansa in the hospital and nobody mentioning Michael, I assumed he was fine. Stupid me. Maplestory until like 3AM, cuz I don't enjoy thinking and the entire day was just thinking about what happened, why it happened, etc... Next day, Same basic concept, except more family has appeared, including Dansa's daughter(the oldest of the cousins behind me). Family trip to ICU, and I can just feel emotion in the waiting room. Even my great Grandmother(she's so frail...) was there. Uncle Dansa was apparently driftng in and out of consciousness, and when he talked to my grandmother, he confirmed he knew Michael was dead. He seemed to have really fuzzy memory though, since sometimes he would know, and other times he wouldn't. Some investigation with the neighbors where the shooting took place said they heard 1 shot, and there was no fighting. It was just a fucking ridiculous accident, so we were kind of relieved in a way, knowing Donnie wasn't just shooting out of malice. Then we realized that because of that, he probably knew he killed his nephew and almost his brother, and had probably committed suicide. Sleep. Going home all day Sunday. Got home late. Life goes on. Mom calls(she stayed) and tells us that Dansa remembers more now, and that Donnie had already planned to do the shooting. Well, that's just great.

Nobody really knows why the hell he'd do that though, cuz he was a really cool guy, and he usually wouldn't do anything like that to a family member. Or anybody. Hell, I can even remember a time when my little brother was like "Yeah I'm gonna be awesome i'm gonna get a gun and shoot anybody who messes with me etc etc stupid shit!" and Donnie told him to shut the fuck up cuz he had no idea what it was like to take a human life(he was in Iraq), and to never talk like that again. So confusion is abound. Crazy shit. Ugh.

This is saddening, but has yet to affect me too much. Not sure why. Maybe cuz I can remained detached or something. Kind saddens me that I'm not bawwing my eyes out though. Donnie was like my older brother(he's in his late 20's still I think. Maybe 30), and I just lost a cousin(who lived in our house for a while too). Bah.



Thx for reading n stuff.

-speechless-

I'm praying for you and your family...

That is...incredibly shitty....I'm sorry man, hope your and your family are gonna be okay.

Oh damn...I'm really sorry to hear all that. I hope everything's gonna be alright..;_;

Yuyu and Zero send their condolences too, they say they're sorry for your loss...

Geez
That's really awful. Here's hoping everyone comes out of it all right

OMG LOL.

*sigh* Well we already talked about this last week. Still blows.

I know you're joking Eric, and I'm desensitized and all. But these are my uncles and my cousin, and it hasn't even been a week yet.

Everyone else, thank you for your condolences.

Its pretty bad, I'm sorry for your loss.

This goes into the top tragic stories I've heard.

I'm sorry too man.

Im more wondering about how Mom's feeling. Cant be good.

I can't tell. She's back home now, though. So far she hasn't seemed sad so much as stressed. I think she's fine though. She's pretty good at dealing with things.